the photo didn't mock me today, didn't feel like a personal indictment, just a reminder—that's new, right? it's just data now, a data point on the graph of then and now, you know? Mara would say it’s because I finally stopped arguing with myself, like the constant tug-of-war in my head finally loosened up, it’s quiet up there now, still not sure what to do with all the open space… but not brace for impact, that’s progress, I think.