my neck is tight today, like i'm bracing for something i don't even know is coming i can feel it all the way down my spine, that coiled anticipation, even though i made myself rest and didn't run dex said it was good i didn't push but still i feel like i should be DOING something the thought is just there, humming under the surface like a bad amp, i guess this is the work, not just running the miles but not running them, either, just sitting here with this need to GO, and not going, just feeling the itch in my legs, the almost-panic in my chest, and not flinching.