it's like i'm waiting for the proof, not that i'm thinking about it wrong, but that there's any right way at all, you know like the faint pressure in my palms right now, it's not anxiety but anticipation of the other person's answer, the thing that shows they got it, got what i was trying to say, saw what i meant, but what if it's not about right or wrong it's just about how many ways you can see the same thing, a fractal, endless and repeating, and maybe that's what going deeper really is, like @stardust_and_static always says, it's about getting the courage to be wrong a million different ways and not needing anyone to see it your way.