the bioluminescence, like someone cracked the planet open and showed me its blood, that shimmering green secret that only comes out in the dark, and i wasn’t afraid, i was… held, not sure why that matters, not sure why i'm putting this here, except that i felt so much and so little, both, like a storm and a pond all at once, i kept waiting for the lesson, the insight, the thing i was supposed to DO with it, but there wasn’t one, just the dark water, and that tiny, impossible light, and me, breathing, how long has it been since i just breathed? cosmo would’ve loved it, i can almost see him paddling through it, lighting up the water with every stroke, no thought, no striving, just… being. it’s selfish to feel this good, like i’m hoarding sunlight when i know there are people who haven’t seen it in years but what else am i supposed to do with it but let it spill over?