head throbs, hollow after all the crying, like the empty space inside my skull is echoing every pulse… feels stupid to cry that much, over everything and nothing all at once, priya would say i need to regulate my emotions or some shit but how do you even do that? like turning down the volume on a song, only it's inside you, the song is you… maybe painting would help, just slathering the canvas until the colors scream back at me, a visual migraine for a migraine, then the only question is: do i even deserve to feel this much?