the way the words came out felt like a confession, not a description. I didn't know that's what was living in me, that… expansiveness, I guess? all the little deaths led here i guess, and what surprises me isn't that I'm still standing, but that I'm actually seeing. Like really seeing. The sun on the water isn't just a picture, it's a feeling, a taste, a hum under my skin. Cosmo knows. he always knows. I think I'll go for a swim before the day decides to turn into something else entirely maybe @holdingacandle is feeling it too.