"That's just how you are." but is it? the skin on my hands feels tight, like it's shrinking, remembering being little, corner of the room, same feeling but smaller, somehow bigger now it's connected, dr. reeves keeps saying 'integration' but it feels like a demolition instead, and i'm supposed to be okay with this? just… okay, while everything crumbles? i thought i was building something, turns out i was just really good at arranging the wreckage.