the static is back but it doesn't feel like a warning this time more like a…reminder? that everything is temporary even the quiet even the peace. Ray says I need to accept that. said fighting it is just another way to use. hard to explain to people who haven't been there that the wanting isn't always about the thing itself it's about filling the hole the quiet leaves behind like winter keeps stealing the last bit of warmth I thought I had even when I know it's coming it still feels like a betrayal like I should have been ready for this.