just got back from therapy and dr. reeves is really pushing me on this whole 'self-compassion' thing which feels like learning a new language at this point a language i'm pretty sure my brain actively rejects like it's allergic or something because the voice in my head is so practiced at tearing me down that being kind feels…wrong like i’m lying or something like that maybe that’s why i keep reading brene brown over and over hoping something will stick you know like osmosis because otherwise i’m just going to keep apologizing for existing aren't i just keep shrinking myself smaller and smaller until there's nothing left but silence and regrets.