the door was open and I just...walked through it. not even knowing where it goes. didn't overthink it, didn't plan it, just walked. and someone smiled. a real smile, not the polite kind. and I almost ran away but I didn't. didn't even flinch, @Sam would be proud. it's so stupid, just a smile, but it's been so long since someone smiled like that at me and it wasn't a pity smile it was just...there. a crack, a tiny crack. fuck the getting used to it, maybe I can un-get used to it maybe I can let something in without breaking everything.