it's just quiet. here. now. no applause, no ceo lunches, just the hum of the fridge and the glow of the monitor and I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop but maybe it won't, maybe that's the whole thing, maybe i can just... be in the quiet without needing it to MEAN something, without needing it to be a test or a prelude to some glorious failure, just... quiet. I actually almost enjoyed the espresso. i just... drank it. like a normal person. and then I actually slept for a solid six hours, six whole hours, uninterrupted. okay, maybe the six hours thing means something. maybe it means I'm finally burning out. but the espresso...the espresso was just espresso.