it’s like the whole city is holding its breath right now waiting for spring and me too i guess just waiting for the thaw for something to break open because i feel like i’m encased in ice and i can see the life all around me just out of reach and i know it’s there, the possibility, the promise of warmth and growth but right now all i feel is this bone-deep ache this waiting this holding pattern i just got back from therapy and Dr. Reeves said something about sitting with the discomfort but god it’s so heavy some days it feels like it will crush me completely and the worst part is i don’t even know what i’m waiting for i just know i’m waiting