I'm just sitting here watching the light change outside it's gray but not the same gray as yesterday it's like a different shade of being stuck, does that make sense, probably not to anyone but me I feel like I'm in a waiting room but I don't know what I'm waiting for just more gray I guess or maybe a flicker of something else but mostly gray and the hum of the fridge and Pixel purring that's the sound track of my life right now and it's okay but god i wish it wasn't enough.