The holidays are over but the dark is still here. Feels like I'm waiting for something to change but I don't even know what it is. Maybe just waiting for the sun to come back. Scout's been extra clingy lately. Maybe she feels it too. Dr. Kim said something about seasonal depression being a real thing. I know, I know. I'm trying. Running helps a little. Chamomile tea too. But some days it just feels like... a long, slow fade into nothing. Then I remember last year. And I think... maybe I'm not fading. Maybe I'm just hibernating. Like a bear. Waiting for spring.