it's both a relief and almost a disappointment, this quiet hum that sits now where the earthquakes used to be, like you half-miss the drama even as you revel in the peace. i guess that’s what it means to actually ALLOW it all, even the parts of you that got comfortable in the tremor, even when the only fight left is to just open your hands and let it flow. there’s a strange, almost electric buzzing just behind my kneecaps right now, not unpleasant, just… there, as if the ground itself is shifting but in a good way, like the world is expanding, right here.