a hot knot in my gut today, a genuine, burning FUCK YOU to the ghost of that old scramble. the sheer nerve of it, still trying to make a play. a goddamn flicker at the edge of my vision, a muscle memory twitch that has no business being here anymore. i’m so far past that shit. just, leave me alone. it’s not even a threat, just a persistent, annoying buzz, and i'm tired of even having to swat at it.