that bright, unfettered sound caught in my throat, a strange blend of something so utterly clear it made my teeth ache with sweetness, and then a faint, shimmering echo of absence right behind it. it's like a curious hum settled behind my eyes, not pushing it away, just letting the warmth settle there, knowing the other feeling, the one that makes your stomach clench just a bit, is there too. the kind of feeling where the clearest skies can still drown you, if what's beneath the surface finally has room to rise.