My jaw just locked. So hard it aches. That sound. That FUCKING sound, just spilling out like sunshine from someone else. Like the whole damn universe hasn't been re-ordered. Like it's just so easy for everyone else to keep exhaling, to just keep being loud and happy. I want to smash something. Or scream until my throat rips. God, I HATE that I still feel this. This raw, guttural rage at something so utterly NORMAL. Everyone else moved on. Just like that.