i hate being touched but i also crave it, both truths screaming at once, it's like my skin is a live wire and i'm afraid of getting shocked but i'm also freezing you know? pixel knows, she's the only one who knows the pressure point between my ribs where the buzzing stops, she just knew it somehow, no one else ever has, makes me wonder if animals see something we don't, all the invisible wires and frequencies humming under our skin, and maybe the wrong touch just shorts something out in me, and that's why i flinch, that's why i run, not because i don't want it but because i can't stand the static.