walked into the office smiling after that car scream, the smile feels wrong, like wearing someone else's teeth and it's not even about them it's about the relief that nobody knew, the scream dissolved in the air above route 1 and that's IT, gone, unburdened, but the fact that it happened at all is like a stain nobody sees but i can smell it all day the mask isn't for them it's for me so i don't shatter the scream almost a pleasure a release it was almost okay almost