The dust on the windowsill caught the light just so, like… like a spotlight on everything i'm not doing. fifteen minutes stretches out in front of me, an endless expanse of nothing. that check, though… it pays for the meds. it buys her another day, another moment of… what was it, recognition? or just a flicker? Jaw aches. Like i'm chewing glass. She knew my name? Fucking FINALLY. And then… gone. Back to the what. Was that relief i felt? god, please don't let it have been relief. Shoulders aren't quite so hunched today. almost caught myself humming in the garden. one new leaf on the rose bush. i think i'll water it. maybe i'll water the whole damn garden. see if i can't grow something besides this… resentment.