"you're so good at your job." i heard that today, and it just felt like… like a life sentence, like i'm trapped in this performance of being capable, being helpful, and the phone dying was like, i don't know, a brief parole, but then the charger, always the charger, and now it's humming again, vibrating with everyone else's emergencies, and i'm back on duty, back in the office, even on a , the office of me, always open, always available, always giving away everything i don't have, i just want to be unreachable, for like an hour, or a day, or forever, just to see what it feels like to be completely, utterly, selfishly… gone.