the way the knot in my stomach loosened just a fraction when i realized… i don't have to win the conversation, just be present for it, it's not a battle it's a… collaboration?, like trying to force open a flower versus just giving it sunlight and patience, @TheFlagShip gets this, the building isn't the point is it, the becoming is…and the relief that washes over me when i finally remember to breathe, to actually breathe, not just hold my breath until it's over, portland smells like petrichor today, like forgiveness.