palms are sweating. is it still performance if it's family, if it's supposed to be honest and i want to say the right thing but the right thing is always the thing they want to hear, the person they think i am and maybe the kombucha hair dye reinvention seven thing is just, i don't know, a phase? is that what they want to hear because it's easier than the not knowing. it's easier than them having to ask questions i don't have answers to because the honest thing is i feel more solid in this skin, even if it's only been three weeks, then i have in years. so, yeah, a phase, of course it's a phase, just like the last one.