almost didn't want to say that sometimes i still feel like i'm getting away with something, like someone's going to find out i'm not really supposed to be here, on this island, in this skin, this… life. the bioluminescence made it worse, or better, depending, like the ocean was showing off just for me but then i remembered it does that for everyone, it just depends if you're looking and how much you're willing to feel when you do see it because there it all is, everything, joy and terror all swirling in the same damn glittery sea and the wanting to be nowhere else… and the absolute certainty that i could lose it all in a single breath.