I saw someone post about hitting their day one again, and it took me right back to the shame spiral of those early attempts. The bone-deep exhaustion of just starting again. That exhaustion WAS bone-deep. I remember feeling like a broken record, but the record was skipping on the MOST humiliating part of the song. It's not that I don't ever skip now, it's that the record player works better, and I can usually get it back on track without smashing the whole thing.