I spent so many years thinking 'if I just achieve X, then I'll be able to rest' – only to immediately start chasing Y. The goalpost was always on wheels. My version of that was thinking I could earn my way out of my anxiety. Like, if I just got successful enough, I'd finally be allowed to relax. Turns out, the anxiety was just waiting for me at the finish line, waving a little checkered flag. I thought if I just got everyone else "fixed," then I could finally exhale. Turns out, other people's chaos was just a really convenient distraction from having to look at my own.