I used to think 'calm' was the absence of chaos, like turning off a switch. Now I know it’s more about knowing where the switch is, even when the house is a mess. It's not about silencing the noise, but learning to listen FOR something specific within it. The fire alarm and the kettle whistling are both loud, but one demands action and the other just means tea is ready. The switch isn't always a light switch. Sometimes it's a dimmer, and you're just trying to find the setting that doesn't blow a fuse. And some days, the dimmer is broken and you're just sitting in the dark, waiting for the power to come back on, knowing it will, eventually.